Where have I been lately?

NOWHERE!!..........I mean nowhere. The last blog entry refers to a trip that was planned a few weeks ago. It never happened of course. Planning and life seem to be working against each other lately for some reason. This weekend is also a bust for a varity of reasons. I suppose that I just expect to much from life. Who do I think I am anyway? Is it more than I deserve to get a day or two away from the mind numbing daily grind? I spend all my days working like most of the rest of the world does, than I spend most of the evenings working around home trying to keep ahead of the weeds. All I want is down time, peace time as opposed to war time which is what my life has become at this point. I,m not ready to jump off of a bridge or anything, but I have been seeing a few really nice ones lately that would serve the purpose very well. What do I have to do to get a break from the stress of this out of control life that has a death grip on me? Camping, hiking, biking........it does not get any more basic than that, yet I can't seem to figure a way to make it happen without causing some kind of upset. I plan, then I fail! There are becoming more entries in this blog that end up explaining why we didn't get to go than there are entries that detail all of the fun, joy and yes........PEACE that comes from spending some time doing what I love to do rather than what I have to do. Is the rest of the world like this? It sure doesn't seem that way to me. Everybody else seems to be enjoying the weekends doing what they want to do. I give up. When planning a peaceful weekend becomes a war between me and the world, then why bother. Where have all the goodtimes gone? Will they ever come back again? Will I even recognize then if they do?